i need to break away

this is the question i often i ask myself recently.it seems that everything i do or think of, is about changing my personal state of affairs.it seems that every decision i would make in the next few weeks are life altering.despite this i feel i am not prepared for such big changes.opportunities have been presenting itself,but i seem to create excuses not to grab them.as if i just let moments pass me by.its been four years now.i need to break away.

i was told by a person that i once admired, that all these experiences that i have are part of character building.then i thought to myself, "from what i know my character has been developed..".i am my own person,my own being.that was thought provoking to say the least.but i know that people shouldn't stop growing..evolving..maybe i'm too lazy,stagnant..is that even possible? i am too lazy,even for my own sake.that's just pathetic..maybe i am pathetic..hopeless..

now that i have reached this conclusion,i should start doing things and stop thinking all the time.i used to be a doer.now its just all plans..THAT'S NOT ME..i need to get out of this rut.i need to break away..AND I WILL..

Comments

[Mae]

I read that you're into The Secret. I think it's already working on you as you write this entry!